05/21/2013

I did a couple of meditations. I started out with the grounding one, and then I did Johnathan Goldman's solar plexus and crown meditation.  I was feeling quite a bit of anger and resentment. I had a hard time getting rid of it, but once I got to the crown meditation I found myself able to focus better. I still feel the seed of the anger and resentment but I feel like I have let go of it for now. I had an interesting experience during the crown meditation where I felt lost in my memories and experiences for a bit. It was fun and enlightening.

5/18/2013

I used this meditation today. Toward the beginning I was able to focus really well, but as I got further in, I found myself not able to focus as much. I just think I didnt like it as much as some of the other ones I have used. I think I am going to start meditations for my chakras on specific days of the week. Here is the idea I have

Sunday- "Sun" Day- Solar Plexus Chakra
Monday "Moon" Day- Third Eye Chakra
Tuesday:  "Mars" Day Normally Solar Plexus, But Crown
Wednesday:  "Mercury Day" -Throat Chakra
Thursday:  "Jupiter Day"- Sacral Chakra
Friday:  "Venus Day" Heart Chakra
Saturday: "Saturn Day" Root Chakra.

I used this page to kind of sort it out. Chakra and Day of the Week Correspondences

That way, I am doing all of my exercises, which at this point are

1) Clairvoyance/Clairaudience Excerize
2) Psychic Sheilding/ Grounding and Releasing

Not in that order. I need to do these for 2 weeks. Sheilding/Grounding and Releasing needs to carry over to my next exercises.

5/17/13

I did the 5/7 meditation again, and this time it was divine. I am currently practicing a couple of exercises. I am practicing grounding and centering, shielding and also doing a sort of "psychic shower", something that I picked up from Witch School.
At first I was really distracted because I have bad allergies today and my eyes were itchy. But once I got focused things went a lot better. I was able to ground out my negativity, as last time. There was some really specific guilt that was bothering me today related to a job interview that I had, so I grounded that out, along with a few other things that I felt were bothering me.

Then I started to shield and then I realized I hadn't done my psychic shower exercise. So, I did that, and I seem to have taken to that one really well. I imagine myself covered in mud and having it washed off. It works really well. I then did my shielding. This is something I need to practice a great deal because I am quite thin-skinned.

After that I was able to reflect and relax which was nice. I ended up staying in deep meditation for a minute or two after the meditation was over, and it took a minute for me to come up. It seemed like I came back in layers, if that makes sense.

One thing I noticed.. there was a moment where my heart felt lightened and I identified that moment as the moment that I relax and accepted my meditative state; as I call it "perfect meditation." I really hope this feeling becomes deeper and more profound with time, because I really enjoy it.

5/12/2013

I did the grounding meditation from 5/7 again and I also incorporated some of my exercises that I am supposed to do for Correllian Witch schoool including psychic shower an chakra balancing. They were very helpful. I was sitting on my couch with my dog and my fiancee and at first I could really sense their energy. It was difficult for me to focus at first due to their presence but after completing the exercises, I could still sense them, but there was less interference.

05/07/13

Today, I did a ritual, and I did the above grounding meditation. I always have better luck with meditation in ritual, but I think this was an exceptional case. I actually think I finally got the concept of grounding.
So here's what I did. I thought of all of the stuff that was bothering me, and I basically just focused on releasing that stuff back into the earth. Any problem that I could think of. Towards the end, I was feeling really good. Right now, I feel empty of anger and resentment and stress. How long will that last? No idea. We will see.

05/03/13

Tried a Tibetan drum/binaural beats meditation. It was about an hour long, and I made it about 13 minutes in. I did another meditation after that, and just focused on focusing, if that makes sense. It seemed to work, but I really didn't get anything out of the meditation, to be honest.